Why so fast?

I really don't remember when I first heard of this acronym, but ever since then this has become the most used acromym in my lexicon. People always complain me being in an excited or agitated state. Optimist call it enthusiasm and cynics kvetch it as pesky.

I have been using this to my sub-ordinates since I 've made a leader of the quiz team of QQuest'09 ( www.qquest.org.in ) I guess. Most of my orders(lol) have an attached ASAP with them. Since I have learned from my TQM book that I should not set objectives for works to be done by sub-ordinates I started using more of this signifierASAP.

Recently I have not only started using this to my superiors, may be because I feel I m someone they couldn't afford to lose :-)  but also to my friends and my girl friend. Conversions as casual as check your mail is now coming out with an appended 'asap' to it. To my girl friend, 'I want you to call me ASAP'. 


(Aditya Kaushaf giving orders to his secratary Ria with an A.S.A.P. in the movie 'Jab We Met')

I don't know why I am always in such a hurry!

A Prisoner of Birth

Since the time I had been introduced to novel reading by Dan Brown’s ‘Deception Point’ I really wanted to share my novel experiences but I had very little to speak as I was very nascent to novel reading even now I am a novice when compared to those book beasts, with not more than ten books worth mentioning. So I again restrain myself from writing too much about it, but sooner I am going too throw a bomb shell on all those perverts that Sidney is nowhere any nearer to Dan.


For now I trammel myself to the undisputedly the best story teller of our time Jeffrey’s, ‘A Prisoner of Birth’. I always enjoyed his works not to mention that ‘Honor Among Thieves ‘ is an all rounder. He on himself being a lawyer and then a member of parliment has profound knowledge on both these subjects not to miss his experience with regards to prisons.

This particular novel doesn’t require too much of his political expertise which certainly made 'Sons of Fortune' a best seller, but has lot to do with the other two expertise.  I feel a little enligtenned about the court room procedures in England and I even feel like I could appear as a barrister(lol) in an English court with the information in this novel .

The courtroom procedures are very perfectly pictured and the thrill of justice being failed to an innocent keeps us sticking to the book throughout. The neat plot of revenge by the hero for the injustice caused and revealing the universal truth of “Satyamaeva Jayathae” (Truth alone Triumphs) at the climax though is well expected still kept me trembling over the last few chapters.

Never to miss his style and his language(though I wonder whether I am even qualified a lil to comment about it) that is marvelous. I am sticking to the usages in the book now in my own conversations.

/-----Those who have not completed the novel better stay above this line-----/
Though there are a few discrepancies on how come two completely different men are misidentified for each other by people who are closely associated with them, why there is no stain of blood in the bar when Fuller arrived even if Craig could manage to change clothes, why none suspected Danny on the death of Nick etc etc. the novel still is sensible or atleast very interesting. Hats off to Jeffrey Archer ‘The Greatest Story Teller of our Time’.

Machines Teach Men :: Wall. E.

There are a lot of movies based on the cynicism on scientific developments esp. many on AI. Nevertheless these movies are interesting. Though I am perfectly positive about any scientific development I am fan of such science fictions. These movies let people think outside the box. Infact the term robot is coined by a literary person, in  1921 the term "robot" was first used in a play called "R.U.R." or "Rossum's Universal Robots" by the Czech writer Karel Capek. The plot was simple: man makes robot then robot kills man!

Wall E. is one other similar movie but it's a completely animated movie in simple turns it is a cartoon. This gave the movie the freedom to visualize fiction well. The movie is based on the alarming increase in waste and growing pollution that makes our beautiful planet extinct. So humans resort to live in space.

The quest for a planet possible for life continues. Survey robots are sent to earth and other planets to find vegetation. One of the old model robots left on earth for cleaning up the waste in earth encounters one such survey robot. This old robot develops feelings for the survey robot.

The climax is that the two robots love each other and they get people back to earth and they release people out of their machinic numbness.

The feelings between the two robots is beautiful picturised. The movie also gives an insight into the future of the planet and shows us what our greedy developments ll do to our wonderful planet. Nevertheless the movie is very enjoyable.

LINKIN PARK our Religion

"I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit, Tonight
Im breaking the habit.."

Previously I had written a post on Savage Garden. My co-Enrique fans where a lilttle troubled but anyway I could convince them by saying Savage Garden is just for a change, but for Linkin Park I couldn't pardon myself.

The thing that I missed it because it's more than just music or hobby or anything trivial like these. Linkin Park is more like a religion.  Though music is in general said to reach the depths of a person, nothing else did reach this deep into us.

Linkin Park has saved me a lot of times from depressionss. It gave me the courage to encounter knaveries, discriminations etc etc.

"Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the fame
Puts ur name to shame
Cover up your face
The phase is to fast
You just won't last."
I would gain strength to fight believing someday I would sing this before them. Right on their face.

The most quaint feature of Linkin Park is, though a few songs have a theme, they are mostly generic, they suit most other similar emotions. It brings out all those awes in you.  Many a time Linkin Park keeps people out of a feeling of solitude or hostility.



"In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore"

'Why are ppl so racist?'

I recently came across this line in some one's ORKUT profile, "Why are ppl so racist?". I gave this question some thought.Then I asked myself 'Am I a racist?' I got an instant 'Yes'. Then I asked 'Why am I a racist?' Why???

This story dates back to 1980s when my aunt joined B.Sc Physics in a college. Then our family was so poor. My father had to take over the family burden at the age of 19 with an younger brother and 3 younger sisters as my grand pa died of cancer. Poor to the extent that he used to skip meals to save money for my aunt's college fees. My aunt was so good at studies that she scored good marks. Despite all these her request for her favorite Chemistry was denied because she is an FC, bloody quota system. My kins often used to remind me that we are doomed and have to put huge efforts to save our interests.

Now coming to TNPCEE 2005. My cousin a very serious CEG aspirant. She stood 2nd in her district (Villupuram) in TN_HSC 2004. But unfortunately she missed CEG then, so she waited for another year made hell a lot of preparation to achieve her dream. She is from a lower middle class family with the only source of income being her dad's salary from a petty job in railways. Her parents never passed through their secondary schools. She scored good in TNPCEE 2005 and got an overall 207th rank amongst the 70+K students who appeared for the exam from across the state.

No use. She still lost her dream, her place in the CSE dept of CEG. She can't afford to wait for another year so, she choose CSE in MIT(Madras Institute of Tech). If only she were a BC at least. She lost her dream by a meager 0.18 marks out of 300.

Though these people are my blood relations I still don't take it too personally. Then how did I turn out to be a racist?

Yes it happened to me. I appeared for TNPCEE 2005. I rarely slept for more than 5hrs a day through out my 12th standard. I would never say I worked hard but I worked with a passion, a passion to achieve. Achieve what? My robotic dreams. I honestly wanted to be a robotician and work in DRDO to put India's defense tech much forward then others. I aspired to study ECE in CEG.

I stood 150th among the above mentioned 70K+ sudents. I scored the best engg cut-off in my educational dist. I didn't say this to boast myself but to tell you that I proved best, provided the environment. May be If I were in Chennai, in some good school like DAV, may be, I would have brought my mom's IIT dreams true.

Then what happened in counselling? I were in the first day 1st batch of counselling. There were 160seats in the ECE dept of CEG (Now it is 200+). And more than half of those 149 before me opted for other options like IITs, NITs, Medicine or Aeronautics etc etc. So I would have got ECE if only there was no quota system or at least if it had been a little sensible. How could they just like that turn me down just because I was born a OC. My dad is not rich. He is just a Police HC and earns somewhere around 16-17K a month and my parents are not even graduates.

May be like my cousin I could have compromised. I could have opted for ECE at MIT. However it's the least I can do for my dad. When I entered the CEG campus for counselling, my dad recalled a incident 20yrs past. Then he had just joined the force and was posted as one of the guards during an electing in the same campus. He recalled that then he wondered whether his son will ever get to be a student in that campus. The tinkle in his eyes nothing's bigger than that. So I made the choice of CSE at CEG.

When a girl from a rich and well educated family ( both her parents are proffessors and her elder sister an Engg.) said that she got 194th place 44 places behind me and got ECE because she is a BC. How do you still expect me to acquiesce the first line of the pledge, "All Indians are my brothers and sisters". How could you expect me to believe all are equal. No way.

Why would I care to defend some country where my dreams are destroyed? where my people's interests suffer. I can't. I am no more a patriot. I m a racist. I wan to be a rich to serve the interests of my people. Yes I m a bloody brutal racist.